AN73: January 2011

Sunday, January 30, 2011

What is wrong with me?...

I AM a bitch... Maybe it IS Alexa, I got alittle pissed and signed off on her, I was telling her how I didn't think it was her[did that make sence]. She got alittle pissed and said she didn't care and yada yada yada. I might be like this because I am alittle un-easy about someone dying and coming back to life (that just sounded weird but okay.

Well, Alexa. If you are reading this, I'm sorry... again.

[Wow I have alot of mixed emotions (f.e. being sad because of alexa, then getting pissed, then asking for forgiveness, then pissed then asking for forgiveness](yeah... I see it too you don't have to tell me... Hey I'm 15, what are you going to do ya know?)

-Ashley

Is it her?/ Making up/Dads house/ext.ext.ext...

Hello everyone, long time no post XD. Well, not really, but you get what I mean.
For some reason her old picture is my Twitter picture... I didn't do that.
Alexa and I made up, I said sorry for calling her a bitch and such.
But.... For some reason, I don't think it's really her.
She has changed big time.
1. She would have changed her Twitter picture back.
2. She said she dosn't care about being proper [language wise]
3. She said she is swearing all the time now.
It is just alittle odd to me... I know what you're thinking, "Hey dumbass people can change"
I wouldn't think she would go that direction, you know what I mean?
I'm not sure... But when I was talking to her [if it actually is her] I kind of dosed off, and I had a dream of a ashy blonde haired girl, and Alexa was washing dishes and the blonde haired girl was drying them and putting them away, and Alexa gave her a knife for her to dry and put away (a huge knife) and she was raising it to stab Alexa (Between her shoulder blades) and Alexa turned around and the blonde haired gril tried to nudge it off like a yawn and a stretch.
It was odd.
OH I almost forgot, my dad moved into his wifes moms house because my stepmom is pregnant but shes 40 and she has diabetes (sp?) and she is going to be on bed rest in March, plus the landlord from the other house got a divorce and he needed the house again. But anyway, it was about 12:30 AM and I was trying to sleep, and I was looking at the shadow the trees were casting on the wall and I spotted something odd, I saw the tree branches swirl (like an octopus) I don't know if I was seeing things or not. It was a long day of moving furniture and junk.
I'll keep updated.
-Ashley

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Oh... You're back...

Hmp, the nerve... That's all I have to say.

-Ashley

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Panic attacks....

I just fucking LOVE having panic attacks at school because of this whole epidemic.
I miss all three of them... Alot.
Since everyone in my grade reads Alexa and I's blog they know what is happening.
You kow how people take stuff out on food.... I take stuff out on energy drinks I drank three in an hour and I had the worst panic attack.
It just sucks that I lost another one, he said he would be fine. I..... Never mind everyone would pick on me [like they aren't already right]
Today when my Nana picked me up I saw him... I flipped him off and smiled. Like I said... He turned my friend into a bitch
So...
I shall be a BITCH back.p.s. Just remember. I backed you up when he called you a lying bitch... I was wrong you ARE a BITCH
UPDATE: 4:52Hmp... They think they are funny, all of the history on my computer was cleared. All of my sites that were easy access becasue it was on my favorites tab was cleared also.
Thanks.... Love you too.
-Ashley

Monday, January 24, 2011

Sorry for so many posts in an hour...

You think you're funny aren't you.

I just love how my door just suddenly unlocked by itself and my head phones were tied into a knot.

You think you're funny hmm?

I know how to untie knots you funny person you.

Heres to express the feelings that i have.

bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchbitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch

Thank you for your time... bitch.

I suppose that was the first shot.

The war begins.

-Ashley

Don't fright...

I'm not going to harm anyone or myself.... Just saying

I'm just explaining how pissed I am at them.

P.s. Alexa

your a bitch.

Love Ashley.

This is war...

So, if anyone is actually reading my blog... Yes, three people are dead because of that tall man [I don't want to call him... you know the S word]
I thought I was on his side, I wanted to get out of my disfunctional family.
But now... This is war. He killed two people, the two that were like my family, The Doctor and The guy that I can't reveal his name.
Yes, if you have read Alexas binary code... Just as expected... SHES BACK, and she isn't the same...
Old dogs learn new tricks he says, someone must have taught him. The Doctor said he couldn't work computers.
Fuck you the person who taught him... Probably Cody.
Cody is a guy I knew that was apart of the so called 'cult'. He stopped talking to me around December... He knew that she was in trouble.
To the person that taught him that 'new trick' fuck you...
This is war... Don't even fucking test me I swear to God... I seem like a nice, little, innocent girl right?... SIKE
Oh, I forgot to tell everyone... I have temper problems... Oh darn... didn't know that huh? Probably not.
Just wait..... Ohhhhh just wait.....
I have a feeling you're testing me... Just cause you take away the people that I care about and turned my friend into a KILLING BITCH... Yeah thats right.... I said it... What are you going to do about it... NOTHING. You have NOTHING on me.
Yes, I am outraged, [no really?]
Hmm, I have a feeling you're reading this right now [ you know who you are]
OH! and Alexa......
Don't try to pull sly shit on me...
Bitch
-Ashley

Old dogs learn new tricks...

Okay, I was not going to post this but yet again he came back... The guy on Alexas profile [I can't say his name] and I just chatted... Scary shit.

Alexa Mosley says:

hello

Ashley Nichole says:

sorry,
i didnt notice the IM

forgive
me

Alexa Mosley says:

its
ok

Ashley Nichole says:

what
is up with the blog

Alexa Mosley says:

i
dn't know

Ashley Nichole says:

hmp

odd,
i was freaking out. how ahve you been

Alexa Mosley says:

i
still can't find her purse

good

you?

Ashley Nichole says:

weird
shit has been happening

Alexa Mosley says:

oh?

Ashley Nichole says:

he
hasnt been around sinceeee i beleive january 1st and hes back

ever
since... you know

Alexa Mosley says:

he
follows me on and off

Ashley Nichole says:

nothing
has been happening to you though

Alexa Mosley says:

why

has
he been doing thibngs?

Ashley Nichole says:

just
wondering, and no hes just watching

Alexa Mosley says:

i
see

Ashley Nichole says:

and
i tweak out and my parents think im crazy

Alexa Mosley says:

Ashley Nichole says:

i
just didnt want to p[ost it on the blog

Alexa Mosley says:

why

Ashley Nichole says:

i
dont know

just
cause

im
kind of scared for you though

Alexa Mosley says:

Ashley Nichole says:

just
becasue of what happened with the doctor

Alexa Mosley says:

i'll
be fine

Ashley Nichole says:

Alexa Mosley says:

Ashley Nichole says:

i
just dont want another one gone ya know

Alexa Mosley says:

i
know

Ashley Nichole says:

soooo......

Alexa Mosley says:

....

Ashley Nichole says:

OH
SHIT I FORGOT

Alexa Mosley says:

O__o

Ashley Nichole says:

okay
well, when i used to tlak to the doctor he said the tall man cant work
electronics

its
an outside job

someone
who knows too much

Alexa Mosley says:

i
don't believe that

Ashley Nichole says:

hes
realllllly old i dont think he can work the computer

Alexa Mosley says:

old
dogs can learn new tricks

Ashley Nichole says:

very
true, only if someone taught him

Alexa Mosley says:

that
young man yolu knew

Cody?

Ashley Nichole says:

he
hasnt been around in a while

Alexa Mosley says:

but
i mean maybe he tought the tall guy

Ashley Nichole says:

hmmmm?

maybe

Alexa Mosley says:

someone's
outside my house

Ashley Nichole says:

shit

Alexa Mosley says:

i'l
be right back

Ashley Nichole says:

dont

remember
what happened to alexa

fuck

Alexa Mosley says:

its
the tall guy

and
her

Ashley Nichole says:

her....
you mean

Alexa Mosley says:

alexa

Ashley Nichole says:

alive?

Alexa Mosley says:

she
doesn't look alive tho

Ashley Nichole says:

Alexa Mosley says:

but
she's breathing. i can see her breath int he cold

Ashley Nichole says:

Alexa Mosley says:

Friday, January 21, 2011

Binary codes...

Most of you know what Binary Codes are... They have the 0's and 1's in them. You might remember them from Marble Hornets, Tribe Twelve, and other well known usernames.

On Alexas blog, there is a binary code on there. I googled it to translate it.

heres the title:
Revenge.

Heres the post.
she'll rise again to smite those who have hurt her...

I had a feeling this would happen... Literally.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

A little to late...

Just a few moments ago I decided to look through the mail I sent.

I passed an email I sent Alexa on 1/13/2011... I was warning her about the doctor, I thought he was a bad guy because of a Devient art picture the person drew of Alexa and the Doctor.

It is a code Alexa and I had... Here it goes...

str upi plsu?‏

1/13/11

Ashley Nichole

Ashley Nichole

ashxlovex@hotmail.com

To Alexa Mosley

S;rcs/ str upi plsu? O fpm'y yhoml yjr fpvypt od ejp jr od. o lmpe upi grr; ;olr
upi vsm ytidy jo, niy o yjoml jr od frvrobomg upi.

-Ashley.

I put it in code becuase I knew someone would be watching her email... I was a little too late... She was already gone... For good.

-Ashley

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Memorials/Connecting/Badminton...

Apparently, everyone in my grade reads Alexas posts, and my posts. Everyone asked me how I was doing and what happened with the person that killed her. I broke down crying, it was horrible. Yes, I am speaking to him... He is actually pretty nice, I know you might think I'm crazy... But he actually feels bad about the... you know.

I am starting Badminton conditioning so I wont be on as much, forgive me though.

I have been getting an erie feeling lately. Hmp.

I will post a video of the memorial after everyone is gone.

-Ashley

Monday, January 17, 2011

This is for the both of you...

To Alexa and the Doctor.

Love Ashley.

-We were there through the rough times. I don't know what to do now.

This is for the both of you.

This kind of sounds like what Alexa was going through.

R.I.P

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will
make it ok
There's always some reason to feel â€œnot good enoughâ€?
And
it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful
release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless,
and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel, fly
away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you
fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in
the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the
straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your
back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you
make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last
time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious
sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of an Angel, far away
from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of
an Angel; may you find some comfort here

Alexa Mosley Doctor
1993-2011 ?-2011

<3

-Ashley.

R.I.P.

My dads house was just bleh...

On to the post.

Most of you know... knew Alexa. A.K.A. Hiddeninalockedroom.

I was right, shes gone. So is the doctor.

He ripped te doctor apart. As so said from someone who witnessed it [whos name i wont say]

I didn't know how to process this at first. When it finally clicked in my head that I wont talk to Alexa or the Doctor again, I just cried... Still am. Its been about 2 hours that I found out she was gone.

She was like a sister to me. Her last words were 'Hes gone' [Meaning the Doctor] I don't even know if that was her.

There are no words that can express the emotions that I have now.

I have been sitting here for a half an hour trying to think of what to say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVbkz_3lO3c

Both of you will be missed...

-Ashley

Friday, January 14, 2011

Dads house...

For the weekend I'm going to my dads house. I will not be on, he does have the internet but he never lets me go on it. He is a total douchebag, I never liked him at all.

Heres a story that sums everything up...

He left my mom when she was pregnant. She tried getting child support from him and I had to be with him for her to get child support. She agreed and I had to be with him when I was 3 I go every other weekend.

He is an alcoholic. Story ended...

My step mom and him got married on my birthday for some court thing my sadly half sisters mom is messed up in the head (Same dad different mom)

When I get home Sunday I will write about the Hell expereiences that I had that weekend.

I'm thinking of putting Twitter on my phone so I can keep everyone updated. I'm not sure.

-Ashley.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Old friends/ Alexa might be in trouble...

Ok, sorry I havn't been putting up posts for the past few days. I wasn't in the 'writing mood' so to speak.

An old friend of mine that I went to camp with found my blog, she emailed me for the first time in about 4 or 5 years. She said she wanted to help. I refused the offer... For now I don't want her to get involved you know what I mean, I know she means well.

I havn't talked about Cody in a while. Theres really nothing to say. I mean we have been in contact. But thats all, nothing special.

On the other hand. Someone has been on Alexas' Twitter account.
I think she is in trouble...

Woah, my computer just tweaked out. Random music started playing, my computer volume is off...

Anyways, her recent Tweets were odd.

Tweets
1:forgetthemonstersforgetthedarknessstopthinkingstopthinkingstopthinkingstopthinkingstopthinkingstopthinkingstopthinking
2:http://twitpic.com/3pho0c

In Tweet 2, there is nothing but white. Well the picture. I don't know if the picture is just not showing on my computer but its odd.

I keep an eye on her Dev. Art. Even though it isn't her putting the pictures up. THis time, it was a poem...

Dearest Alexa

wrapped up
white
white
red
blue
vacant stare
im sorry

It was odd. But I have a feeling something bad has happened. I don't know if this is right but I think I cracked it. Like I said, I don't know if it's right. But I'll give it a shot.

If you put the two words 'Dearest Alexa' in front of every line it says something [Well of course it does but just read]
Dearest Alexa wrapped up
Dearest Alexa white
Dearest Alexa white
Dearest Alexa red
Dearest Alexa blue
Dearest Alexa vacant stare
Dearest Alexa I'm sorry.

I don't kow about you... But that sounds like trouble to me... I think the white, white, red, blue. Means her skin colour, like if someone was choking their skin colour would change from white, to red, to blue.

Some people might not know what the word 'Vacant' means. I'll save you the trip to Google XD

Vacant; characterized by, showing, or proceeding from lack of thought or intelligence: a vacant answer; a vacant expression on a face.

That is one of the definitions I looked up. I think it matched this so called 'Poem" the most.

Well thats all I have to say for now. I will keep you guys updated.

-Ashley.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Bored.

I don't know about you, but this Sunday has been the most boring Sunday EVER.

I have been sick the whole weekend and there is nothing to do.

I finally burned out my whole entire Christmas Cookie candle :D

There is nothing to really talk about soooooooo... Bye XD

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Relationships...

I know this is the second post today, but my friend asked me out...

It was akward, it was over text message, he dosn't know that I'm... Leaving, so to speak.

Michiru, I think everyone knows Michiru. She told me last month 'he' might be taking me the end of this month.

I was actually excited [you would know why if you were in my shoes]

I don't know what to say to him though, the boy who likes me.

Hmmm... Michiru suggested I should say I am moving with a different family member.

I don't know...

Hmp.

No News Is Good News.... Right?

So nothing has been going on really, No notes, no boxes, nothing. It's kind of odd. Everything is quiet, I'm still going to watch my back still, no doubt about it.

So since I'm bored out of my mind, I shall tell you more about myself.

I am ambidextrous.
I love to read.
I love all music.
When I was little I had a bear named Brownie.
I am obsessed with Bath and Body Works.
I love to travel [even though I don't really go anywhere special, I just go out of state]
I love games where I have to think.
I love the show Law and Order.
I have 12 candles.
I am burning a Christmas Cookie scented candle right now <3
My eyes are blue.

I think that is it. Nothing really special.

So back to the topic I was originally suppost to talk about, like I said before, I'm watching my back, just in case.

And now we wait...

Friday, January 7, 2011

Starting Over...

Hello, some of you know me, some of you don't. I'm Ashley, I'm 15 years old. There is really nothing to say about myself, I'm not an exciting person really. Everyone knows why I'm making a blog anyway so it isn't worth talking about myself.

My last blog was hacked. I honestly didn't really mind that. I suck at updating blogs.

I have trust problems, I can only trust a few people.

Thats all for now.

-Ashley