What the hell is going on?

I have been sleeping alot lately everytime I go to sleep I have nightmares about 'him' I would wake up freaking the hell out.
When I woke up this morning having the same nightmare I went to go get a glass of water.
My leg was hurting so I pulled my pant leg up and there was a huge bruise, like a octopus tentacle.
Heres the picture:
http://tinypic.com/r/8xsvoj/7
Well for whoever is curious about the reoccuring dream I have been having it was 'him' ad he was standing over me and he was trying to take me and he grabbed my right leg and he was making his grip tighter and tighter until I wake up.
I am sick of this shit, I'm staying at a friends house, I'm already packed and right after I'm done typing this I'm leaving.
-Ashley

What is wrong with me?...

I AM a bitch... Maybe it IS Alexa, I got alittle pissed and signed off on her, I was telling her how I didn't think it was her[did that make sence]. She got alittle pissed and said she didn't care and yada yada yada. I might be like this because I am alittle un-easy about someone dying and coming back to life (that just sounded weird but okay.

Well, Alexa. If you are reading this, I'm sorry... again.

[Wow I have alot of mixed emotions (f.e. being sad because of alexa, then getting pissed, then asking for forgiveness, then pissed then asking for forgiveness](yeah... I see it too you don't have to tell me... Hey I'm 15, what are you going to do ya know?)

-Ashley

Is it her?/ Making up/Dads house/ext.ext.ext...

Hello everyone, long time no post XD. Well, not really, but you get what I mean.
For some reason her old picture is my Twitter picture... I didn't do that.
Alexa and I made up, I said sorry for calling her a bitch and such.
But.... For some reason, I don't think it's really her.
She has changed big time.
1. She would have changed her Twitter picture back.
2. She said she dosn't care about being proper [language wise]
3. She said she is swearing all the time now.
It is just alittle odd to me... I know what you're thinking, "Hey dumbass people can change"
I wouldn't think she would go that direction, you know what I mean?
I'm not sure... But when I was talking to her [if it actually is her] I kind of dosed off, and I had a dream of a ashy blonde haired girl, and Alexa was washing dishes and the blonde haired girl was drying them and putting them away, and Alexa gave her a knife for her to dry and put away (a huge knife) and she was raising it to stab Alexa (Between her shoulder blades) and Alexa turned around and  the blonde haired gril tried to nudge it off like a yawn and a stretch.
It was odd.
OH I almost forgot, my dad moved into his wifes moms house because my stepmom is pregnant but shes 40 and she has diabetes (sp?) and she is going to be on bed rest in March, plus the landlord from the other house  got a divorce and he needed the house again. But anyway, it was about 12:30 AM and I was trying to sleep, and I was looking at the shadow the trees were casting on the wall and I spotted something odd, I saw the tree branches swirl (like an octopus) I don't know if I was seeing things or not. It was a long day of moving furniture and junk.
I'll keep updated.
-Ashley

Oh... You're back...

Hmp, the nerve... That's all I have to say.

-Ashley

Panic attacks....

I just fucking LOVE having panic attacks at school because of this whole epidemic.
I miss all three of them... Alot.
Since everyone in my grade reads Alexa and I's blog they know what is happening.
You kow how people take stuff out on food.... I take stuff out on energy drinks I drank three in an hour and I had the worst panic attack.
It just sucks that I lost another one, he said he would be fine. I..... Never mind everyone would pick on me [like they aren't already right]
Today when my Nana picked me up I saw him... I flipped him off and smiled. Like I said... He turned my friend into a bitch
So...
I shall be a BITCH back.p.s. Just remember. I backed you up when he called you a lying bitch... I was wrong you ARE a BITCH
UPDATE: 4:52Hmp... They think they are funny, all of the history on my computer was cleared. All of my sites that were easy access becasue it was on my favorites tab was cleared also.
Thanks.... Love you too.
-Ashley

Sorry for so many posts in an hour...

You think you're funny aren't you.

I just love how my door just suddenly unlocked by itself and my head phones were tied into a knot.

You think you're funny hmm?

I know how to untie knots you funny person you.

Heres to express the feelings that i have.


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Thank you for your time... bitch.

I suppose that was the first shot.

The war begins.

-Ashley

Don't fright...

I'm not going to harm anyone or myself.... Just saying

I'm just explaining how pissed I am at them.

P.s. Alexa

your a bitch.

Love Ashley.